Had a converstation with Dad a while back. We were talking about teachers. He laughed really hard when I told him that some people have jobs they do, not for the money, but because they love what they do. "What kinda bullshit is that?!" *sigh*
Here's a curve ball for you: I don't love being a lawyer. I barely like it. I suck at history and don't want to deal with people. There are a lot of people who go into the criminal justice/criminology field because they want to help people. Which makes me look/feel like dick because I'm being pushed into it. For the money. My parents have this ridiculous mental image that I'll be (and by transitive property they will be) ungodly rich if I become one. But to be honest, for the first 10 years of my career, in the event I take this up, I'll be living in poverty from paying off 8 years of really expensive schooling. And the really rich lawyers you see on TV are the ones representing mulimillionairs. And you can shoot me first if you think I'm representing their lying selfserving ass.
And if by some shakespearian turn of events I do end up with one, I'll probably end up working for the state. And you never make that much money working for the state.
I told them I wanted to go to cooking school or drop out of college. Dad told me to get a job. Mom freaked and told me to go anyways. She'll pay for it all. After I've gone through the misery of it all, then I could do what I want. But I don't want to go. I've heard horror stories about it. Half of all lawyers, given the opportunity, would go back in time and stop themselves from going to law school. And that was straight from another lawyer's mouth.
One thing's for sure, I'll never see the inside of a cooking school.
I'm scared guys, really, truly, scared. And I don't even know what I'm scared about. I just know that I'm wasting my time and I don't want to do this crap anymore. I want to be happy and have my parents backing. But clearly I can choose one or the other, not both.
Wow, isn't my life just grand? This is one of those times in my life where I wish someone would come save me, but I'm sure this is the part where I have to save myself.
